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Melon Girl is not my gal  anymore…she and I have decided to be friends and that we had different paths and goals in our life to take right now

But something that I can't understand also Is that after all the talk about wanting to be healthy and start taking steps to better the quality of her life…after 3 months of dating…in a long distance relationship…nothing happened that she said "would happen"

she never went to the ymca to get a gym membership

she never went to the store to starting taking medicine and supplements for her joints and knees like her doctor (and even I) suggested.

she basically has just piddled around the issue and been only concerned about having a relationship with me and not concerned at all about her well being.

she says one thing and does another….

shes a good person but her heart is all over the place…or i should say her mind is…and i could not deal with that right now

also she was looking for a husband..and i mean like "right away"…she called every day sometimes 4 times a day and we'd talk and have good talks but…she was so afraid of me leaving her that she kept on asking it every time she called me..kept on testing me left and right and not trusting me…

I thought at first she was my soulmate..but i rushed the emotional gun on this…..

so i told her that i don't think I'm in love with you the way you want me to be in love with you…..

so at least we are friends…but nothing more….i just didnt feel that heart connection like i had hoped it was

we only saw each other in person 1 time….and we had fun…but not ya know *that kinda fun* it never went that far

at any rate it all boils down to this "we are just not a good fit as a couple"

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And I know what your saying "dave drew a great pic of her as a muscle girl"

but i don't think in her "heart of hearts" she really wants to be a muscle girl…in fact i truly don't know where her heart is at this point….

somedays it seemed like she was really going to do things….and then later she'd procrastinate

And I am a very big procrastinator, myself so i understand things are rough when you get set in a pattern but…she just didnt really want to try…and that bothered me

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Awww, I'm sorry..

It can be hard to break up most of the time, even if you want to.
I remember I had a (very) long distance relationship with a girl, and it went on for a little over a year. I was really scared about ending it, even though she was wonderful about it, and sometimes I still miss her.
But we'd drifted apart, and people change.

I know what it means to procrastinate… I'd wanted to start working out for the longest time, but I was always thinking I'd never get round to it and I was too shy to admit it.
But I got over the shyness.. and I know I can procrastinate about actually going to the gym, but I think when you DO go, and when you're there.. you start feeling so much better about yourself that you want to go more, and keep it up.
I mean the first time I went, I was aching like nobody's business the day after, but that was telling me I'd DONE something, I could have been sat at home and doing nothing, but no, I actually acheived something.

But what I'm getting at is, if you're really not determined and you don't really WANT it, you won't do it. You'll manage to think up every kind of reason not to.

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