[NecrochildK]

::hugs:: Thanks, Jack. Yeah, I do feel better when I workout, emotionally, not just physically. It's just getting up to feeling like going to workout sometimes is a challenge. I think with a trainer's regular help now though, it should help motivate me too.

[NecrochildK]

x_x And this is why I could never hope to do squats without equipment to guide me. :p Some of us have too much in front to balance right.

[NecrochildK]

Thanks guys. And Gblock, honestly, my ordeals have left me without even the energy to truly be angry. And what I've heard and experienced, anger without energy is depression. I have clinical depression to begin with, but I got off of medication. I couldn't stand the pills anymore and just decided to push through one day at a time and deal with it as best as I could on my own. It's really rough at times, but I make it. In truth, the only reason I'm still living is because I know how much it would hurt those around me if I were to die. Especially right now my mom. I learned from my husband's grandmother that right now, both my mom and I have told her the same thing. That despite all my mom's brother's and her mother hanging in by a thread, all the extended family we have left, we both feel as if it's just us two left in this world. As if the only thing we have left is each other. I just fear for her. I try and visit her once a week, but I feel like it's not enough, and I'm too worn out to do more… We lost Dad last November, and now my brother, Sean… Heh, we're a patchwork family in a way… Mom and Dad adopted me… And Sean was a foster child… But we were still as close if not closer as any family by blood. Anyways, sorry for rambling. It's been two weeks since Sean died. Mom just got back from his funeral a couple days ago. I couldn't go due to finances, can't fly all the way up to Massachuessettes, not to mention the change in pressure would probably be bad on my lungs right now. I just… I feel like I've moved past the hurt, but I guess I do still have some issues over it to work out… He wasn't the prime example of a good man, a good husband, a good father or a good brother… but he was still my brother.

[NecrochildK]

Excellent! More! MORE! lol I gotta say too, little details had me quite amused, like the motorcycle engines' sounds being described as "potato-potato-potato-potato" I never thought of it before, it really does sound like that. lol Loved the 70s and 80s tv references too.

[NecrochildK]

^_^ Thanks, Refaal. Man, I so miss hanging with everyone in the chat. I hope they can work something out.

[NecrochildK]

^_^ Thanks, Yara. :hug: Heh, oh, meant to post on there too, the lines on my shoulder are from the leg press and standing calf raises the night before.

[NecrochildK]

All those curves and me with no brakes..!  😀 Great action too! 

[NecrochildK]

::hugs:: Thanks, I appreciate it. Well, the news is my ovaries are polycystic. So, my doc put me on birth control pills again to try and get it under control as it responded well to it when I was a teen. So, hoping it goes well.

[NecrochildK]

I've been alright more or less. Got somewhat negative news from my doc though, but it's nothing that'll slow me down. Just been so supremely tired lately.

[NecrochildK]

If you so wish, I's can go back through my's remaining notebooks and see if I's can translate the best means and methods for Organ Healing and Cleansing.

I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks so much, Neon!

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