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I would have said something if he had felt otherwise with his comic.  He said that he felt that his comic sucked and therefore all he needed was that one person to say "Yeah I agree with you" for him to actually go ahead and kill it off.

But if he said he loved doing the comic and that he loved drawing it, he would have been making a colossal mistake.  A person should not try to compare themselves to established professionals when they are first starting out.  All they're going to do is shoot down their self esteem and keep asking themselves "How come I can't do that?"  I remember being envious of other artist's amazing talents at drawing, but I continued to draw anyway and just ignored what everyone else was doing because I wanted to draw for ME.

It made ME happy and if I wanted to make terrible animations, disproportionate muscle characters, badly colored images, then I was going to do it.  Granted years and years of practice have allowed me to reach a point where I can be satisfied with my own work, it was important to keep in mind that I drew because I loved it, not because it was professional.  I know there's tons of pros who look at my stuff and go "amateur" at least when it comes to drawing.  But hey as long as I love it I don't care.

It's too bad he decided to stop the comics, too many artists who draw decently have low self esteem.  The ones that draw in a passable or terrible manner have all the confidence in the world.  How ironic.

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Now that the story is finished there are some things I wanted to share with the readers.

– If you finished the entire story, you've actually just read through 84 pages worth of text!

– The reason I put the story up a day at a time was because I have found that in the past, if you post the story all at once people will not read through the whole thing.  However, if you do it in separate pieces it's easier to digest and get into before the story becomes too lengthy.

– I have never written a detailed FMG story in first person.  I had done some journal entries here and there, but never a story quite like this.  Was a very new experience for me.

– I also never ever planned to write a story that would have two female characters fall in love with each other.  Ironically, unlike most of the male population ladies kissing each other never interested me, but these characters seemed to drive the story that way.

– I left all the details to your imagination which Tertio picked up on.  Anything you may have thought was gory, super sexual, or anything of that nature was all left to your imagination, which I'm quite happy to have accomplished.

– I thought the entire story was going to be written in a journal, but I experimented with letting the story and the characters drive itself.  So I really had no control over where the story went and simply let the girls tell me what should happen next.

– There is more.  Not for this specific story as this chapter is certainly finished; but in the over arching grand scheme of things this is one piece to a much larger puzzle.

– It was important to me to receive feedback as there have been many times where there simply weren't enough readers, and therefore it wasn't satisfying to post more sections of the story.  For me, seeing that the forums let's you talk to the authors I was really curious to see the reader response to this story.  I'm very glad you all jumped in and spoke what you thought of it, it was very satisfying.

Thanks again, and if you have questions, comments, just let me know and I'll be glad to answer!

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There are no further chapters to this story, that's it!  Hope you all enjoyed it as much as I did writing it!

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Looks like he posted the links before me, ah well I think that's excellent.  Those are the meshes you should play with Buddy, the armors aren't as important as the actual bodies themselves, because if you make the biceps, legs, and overall body bigger.  As long as the skin wraps around properly I can texture it and make the "bulky" model look RIPPED!

Really wish I knew more about the modeling aspect, but that's just not my forté at the moment, even having taken a Maya course.  I researched a lot of the Oblivion modification stuff so ask questions anyway if you have them as I might be able to answer them hopefully.  Or even some of the folks here.

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Chapter 12: Time To Close The Journal

We were back at Nina’s apartment and we had a bit of a discussion with what happened.  Nina’s body when she reverted; actually stayed stuck in bodybuilder form.  Though her breasts looked slightly larger, it was only because now that her body was smaller her unchanging breasts looked bigger.  She will never be the small 5’ 4” girl I knew back in high school, she will always be stuck as the tall, muscular, 6 foot girl with explosive biceps, an incredible butt, and an indestructible chest.

As for the facility, after all of our fighting we ended up accidentally destroying the entire place.  The damage done to the facility was immense, there was no way they would be able to repair or rebuild it.  Now that Nina was back to normal I wanted to know if she was feeling all right with all the changes.

“So… how do you feel about your body Nina?”

“I don’t know, it still feels weird.  I don’t know if I like or not yet.  But… I’m stuck like this aren’t I?”

“You mean being muscular all the time?  Yeah…”

“I can never go back to looking the way I did before?”

“No Nina, if you haven’t shrunk down by now you never will.”

“Well, on one hand to be this strong is really cool and experience what you experience when you change is… awesome.  I just don’t know if I like the way I look.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know, muscles on a woman?  Look at how flat chested I am, so much muscle.”

“What did you think of me when you saw me with muscles?”

“Honestly?”

“Truthfully yes.”

“I thought you were sexier with the big muscles.  Seeing you lay down in that water with your giant nipples shining in the light, the water running down the muscles of your body, seeing your “you know” inviting me, checking out your thick legs just waiting to be grabbed and touched.  I didn’t think that when you were she-hulk, but when you were muscle Marissa I will admit it was sexy.”

“Wow, thank you.”

“What did you think of me?”

“I was mesmerized by you Nina.  I still am and I always have been.  I don’t mind the changes to your body, I think you’re beautiful no matter what you look like.”

“Then… as long as you’re happy with my body I can be happy with it too.  The truth is I do like how my body looks, the only hard part is being able to live without my big breasts.”

“I love you whether you have breasts or not, I don’t need em I already have my own.  Touching your ripped muscles is enough of a turn on for me Nina.”

“Oooh, now that you put it that way I’m tempted to want to touch your body all over again.”

“You will in time, I want to ask you what you want to do.”

“What do you mean?  You mean now that the jig is up?”

“Yeah… I’ll go along with whatever you want to do Nina.”

“Can we even live a normal life?  I mean I’m not used to holding back my temper Marissa, what if I grow and change while we’re out to eat!”

“Welcome to my world.”

“I’m really worried about this Marissa, if that company existed there’s probably more.  They’ll send the cops after us, the military!  How are we supposed to live?  I really wanted to make a career out of my beautician stuff, maybe own a business.  How can I do that now?”

“I have an idea.”

“Tell me.”

“We can build a little home out in the forest where we can live, rest, relax, and hulk out if need be.  When we want to run business though it will be a little out of the way we can still drive into town, go to the mall, hang out at shops, and you can do your beauty stuff.  I don’t think your condition will turn on if you get mad Nina, the mind control stuff didn’t work but all the other stuff seems to be fine.”

“So I can still live a normal life, even if I get stressed out a little?”

“Well you can’t let yourself get supremely pissed off because then I’m pretty sure you will change.  But being a little angry or stressed out shouldn’t affect you too much.”

“Then I can still accomplish what I want to do?”

“Yeah, and I’ll help you in anyway I can.”

“What about you Maris?”

“I can focus on writing and if we make some money from that maybe we’ll travel around the world for a bit?”

“You always were a good writer, I’d love to go to Paris with you.”

“So you want to do it?”

“How are you going to build a cabin?”

“I did some fine arts and minored in carpentry when I was in college.  I’ll be able to figure it out, just give me a few weeks.  In the meantime we can live in your apartment for a little bit.”

“Sounds like a plan Maris.”

“Wonderful, come over here and give me my luvins.”

Last entry for my journal:

So this is it, the last pages of my journal as there are no more spaces to fill after I complete these.  Nina and I are truly in love and are truly soul mates.  Living together is easy since we’ve done it for so long.  We get into arguments like everyone else does, but we love each other so much that they’re soon forgotten.  And no… there haven’t been any arguments that have resulted in a hulk out, though we have… intentionally changed a few times to spice up the sex a bit.  My God is it incredible, I didn’t think feeling muscles growing while making love would be such a turn on.

Perverse thoughts aside, I finished building the cabin and managed to hire a few people to get electricity and water going inside of it.  So the cabin was complete.  Believe it or not Nina and I had gone on a few trips to other towns and surprisingly I had managed to save Sherrie’s life one day with Nina by my side.  There was this massive earthquake and a giant woman attacking the area where she lived.  She managed to beat the giant woman but now that she was ‘out’ the ‘hunters’ showed up to try to take Sherrie in.  She needed to get out of there with her husband so Nina and I hulked out and started smashing the hunters to buy Sherrie some time to get out of there.  In return “Dr.” Sherrie gave me some money to finish up the cabin, help Nina get her business started, and self publish my books, which are selling very well.

We live a simple life here in the woods, but it’s far from dull, and is in fact quite exciting.  Everyday something new happens and we tell each other stories on how we nearly avoided hulking out, or stories where we did hulk out but managed to escape before getting busted.  It’s a part of our lives now and we have to accept it.  What’s more important to me now though is that I have found someone I want to spend the rest of my life with and Nina has found someone as well.  Nina is my keeper and protects me, with her permanently muscled body she takes care of me when I’m sick, protects me from transforming, nurses my wounds, she is my caretaker.  When Nina gets hurt or attacked then I allow myself to transform and I rise up to protect her from physical harm.  I put my life on the line for her, take the blame for any mishaps that she may have done, and draw all attention away from her so I become the target.  It is mutual that we nurse each other, and cook for each other, though Nina likes to cook more than I.

I provide Nina with the educational knowledge she needs to keep her business running efficiently, and Nina keeps me entertained and prevents me from becoming too dull by taking me out to party and have fun, within reason of course.  She has forgiven me for the people I have taken the lives from, it’s not something that has sat well with me and is probably why Grey She-Hulk haunts me like a demon.  But Nina has given me a solace and peace of mind I wouldn’t have found on my own and even with She-Hulk around I am… okay.  It became less important to me for people to know about my story compared to when I first started writing in this journal.  People know who I am through my writing, I’ve turned some of my journal stories into epic action novels and some romance novels and even the occasional science fiction novels.  However, there is a part that will complete this journal for me… as it truly lifts a burden that had been hurting me for the longest time.

Jenna wrote me a letter and said:

“Dear Marissa,

If you’re wondering why no one has heard from me it’s because I’m taking care of my daughter and dealing with her ‘growing pains’ if you know what I mean, I didn’t know it could be passed onto your kids, I might have avoided getting pregnant.  However, I wanted to tell you that I know about the research facility you destroyed, the people you killed, the buildings you smashed.  I also know about the lives you saved, the friend you saved, and I hear from Sherrie that you pulled her out of a jam as well and she’s made significant progress in controlling her inner strength.  So much that she’s actually living a normal life.

All thanks to you?

Marissa… I was harsh on you that day, I know it was your parents that you lost but I was too arrogant to see that.  My ego and experience blinded me to the fact that you’re still human and your parents were important to you.  When Reigh destroyed everyone I loved I became very callous to how other people would feel if they lost their family.  Not to mention that you don’t even have any control over what She-Hulk does.  To this I say, I’m sorry for all those things I’ve said to you and how badly I scolded you.  I was just so upset over the loss of our friends, but I know now that you didn’t mean it and that it hurt you more than it hurt me.

I hope you can accept my apology and maybe sometime we can meet up for lunch.  I would love to meet Nina as she seems like a very special girl to you, I’d love to see you again.  Don’t vanish, be a shining star.

P.S.

I love your books, when’s the sequel to She-Titan coming out?

P.S.S.

If you look me up, I’m under the alias ‘Jailyn Steel.’  My phone number and contact information is listed on a separate sheet that came with this letter.

Love,

Jenna

I kept that letter ever since.  I’m going to call her tomorrow; I’d love to see her and Sherrie again.  It had always bothered me being kicked out of the only place I could call home, but now I can finally make amends and make peace with the people I care about.  Well, that’s it for my story.  I don’t know what this journal will accomplish, but as long as people understand why I did the things I did and don’t mark me off as a black mark in history, I think I’m quite satisfied with how everything turned out.  I didn’t know I would feel so much better after writing this; it certainly has brought me an inner peace I had been missing for a long time.  It’s time to sign off, and of course I want to include Nina into this. After all she has read every single word and piece of text I have written here, and still loves me regardless.

With love the ‘little’ Black Sheep and her Shepard,

Marissa Karzneli – Viera

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Nina Viera – Karzneli

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Chapter 11: Forced Against Our Will

It was frightening and arousing at the same time, Nina had fully changed and transformed into this gigantic behemoth, veins bulged all over her body wrapping around her massive bulbous muscles.  Striations in her deltoids ran deep and all I could wonder was how strong Nina was now that she has changed?  I was forgetting that I needed to be escaping right now, things were about to get really messy and if I didn’t change soon I’d be in really big trouble. 

But wait…

If they want to kill me, they need to revert me back from She-Hulk in order to finish me off.  Why would they… Ah now it makes sense.  They wanted to make sure I didn’t change prematurely, they’re probably planning on taking me somewhere I can’t destroy the lab, well too late for that I’m coming out now!  I let my anger explode out of me as I focused my thoughts on Nina’s transformation, my capture, the things I’ve done, the people who were trying to hurt us.  I let all of my anger simply combust, instantly I felt the power of my muscles begin to grow.

The director looked at me and said “Why isn’t her second gauntlet on!  Don’t let her transform early, we’re not ready yet!”  The transformation was starting to paralyze me, with the half functioning gauntlet on the other hand and the already immobilizing muscle growth transformation, taking place.  Things were about to get difficult with the guards fast approaching to take me down.  They jumped on top of me piling up all over my body. They had several blackjacks in their hands, which they used to smack the back of my neck.  However, since my body was already starting to expand the blackjacks made dull thuds over my growing muscle mass.

It still hurt though and that obviously made me angrier than I was before, they kept hitting me over and over and I could tell that my skin was starting to show red welts, but nothing was going to stop me.  There was still a chance I could save Nina, even though I know we’re going to fight for a bit I can still save her.  Nothing was going to stop me!  I yelled angrily looking towards the glass window as I suffered all the hits from the security guards who were desperately trying to knock me unconscious.  They continued to hit me all over my body from my head to my toes but my body continued to grow regardless.

My muscles were starting to bulge through the silver spandex.  My muscle definition could be seen even without exposing my skin.  They were starting to get desperate, I saw a few more guards run in with tranquilizer guns in their hands.  Obviously I was afraid of one of those managing to get through and pierce my skin, so I tried as hard as I could to struggle and fight even with one disabled arm and my body pulsating in agony.  I continued to smack the tranqs out of their hands and managed to grab one tranq in order to simply crush it with my bare hand.  This was really pissing me off as they started piling on top of me like I was the football player with the pigskin.

I could feel the weight of twelve men on top of me and since my strength hasn’t fully kicked in yet; it was practically crushing my body, but I stayed in the crawl position, because if I let myself lie down they might be able to take me out.  I had to give it all I had just to stay up and I was already getting exhausted!  I had never felt exhausted during a transformation before, but it was kicking in fast and I couldn’t afford to fail now.  I could feel the pokes of needles trying to prick through my skin but I would shift or break the tip just before it could penetrate me, forcing them to grab another before it was too late.

It was getting harder and harder to fight them off which ended up infuriating me!  This sudden eruption of anger caused me to scream loudly and angrily as the silver spandex slowly tore open on my back, my white skin puffing outward as boulders of muscle replaced my soft plushy skin into mighty symbols of power.  “Shit she’s growing! Get those damn tranquilizers in her now!”  The more I grew the harder the guards fought to keep me down, but I kept fighting on, no matter what!  I could feel the vibrations and hear the sound of Nina smashing her fists into the walls, she was counting on me and I couldn’t afford to let her down.

These guys are tough; clearly they spent a lot of time training these men. I wouldn’t be surprised if some of them were veterans at this.  I couldn’t let that deter me, I let my rage continue to grow and in doing so the silver spandex split open on my biceps allowing my arms to grow into powerful turrets of destruction.  My triceps spread the spandex out tearing it off of my bulging biceps as my forearms formed into thick cords of powerful muscle, which wrapped itself in titan infused veins.  My other arm grew to such a large size that the gauntlet broke off and shattered into several pieces.  Suddenly the full extent of my emotion felt like it was unleashed, the growth process wasn’t as slow anymore! I felt… I felt a sudden surge of power and metamorphosis consume me!

My feet burst out of the silver slippers they gave me and my calves followed in suite as they tore open the cuffs of the spandex pants, my legs and butt immediately burst out pushing some of the guards back as the spandex quickly began to rip and shred following the rapid growth of my lower body.  My breasts shot down onto the floor, they hit with such force that they cracked the floor and instantly tore open the chest area of my little spandex outfit.  As I continued to grow larger and larger my stomach became harder, my muscles tighter, my back wider, my legs thicker, my butt plumper and firmer, the guards were trying to stop me but all they were managing to do was grab the tatters of my outfit and ended up ripping it off.

I’m sure if they weren’t busy trying to knock me out that they’d be staring at my naked body and getting a good look of how muscular it’s gotten.  Unfortunately for me, they were still busy trying to knock me out.  But by now it was too late, my vision was starting to turn red, my skin was starting to turn grey, and I was feeling immune to their attacks.  I wasn’t feeling any of their attacks, pricks, pokes, nothing.  All I felt was anger, and a strong need to demonstrate my awesome might.  There’s ONE thing I wanted to do different though, if I let She-Hulk completely take over I may end up hurting Nina by accident, I have to find a way to turn into She-Titan while I’m Grey She-Hulk in order to be able to think clearly while still having enough power to take Nina’s hits.

Since I’m the only one that has this additional transformation, I’m the only one that can figure out right now if it can be done or not to change into She-Titan while as She-Hulk.  My theory is that if Jenna and Sherrie can turn into Giantess’s while in their titan forms, I should be able to find a way to revert myself into Titan form by calming down, but at the same time keeping my mind focused on staying big.  Hard to do since She-Hulk keeps stealing control of my brain like an overgrown brat, but this is the only shot I’ve got.  All right here goes nothing…

I let out a deafening roar as my body bulged up to its final hulk proportions, my skin color completely turned grey and I lifted myself up with such force that it was like I was pushing bees off of my body.  The dog pile was instantly blasted off of my being, revealing my nude, grey, muscular form for all to see.  I needed to act fast but I was already starting to lose consciousness, I saw the director and her assistant staring at me in fear as I roared in their direction.  I started…

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I’m holding onto the director?  Oh God she’s already dead!  What about everyone else?  Jesus!  They’re all dead?  Did I kill them?  I did!  No! I must have let She-Hulk take control.  I can’t let her do that.  Nina was starting to punch the glass of the wall and finally ended up smashing through completely.  She roared like an angry zombie and yelled my name, “Marissa!”  It didn’t sound like one of those I want to destroy you things, I think she was trying to control herself by the way she was moving but couldn’t help herself.  She made her way through the glass as I threw the dead bodies down on the floor. Nina came at me at full speed and whalloped me with a good…

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RAGHR!  Ugnh!  What happened now?  UGH!  Nina is still hitting me! God that hurts so much!  OOF!  She just threw me through the walls, she’s coming at me and all I can see is her shimmering muscles rhythmically bouncing towards my direction!  She’s balling up her first at me and I’m seeing around me that the entire lab is getting destroyed.  Explosions are erupting behind me and there’s fire all over the place, alarms are ringing!  We’re fighting but I keep on blanking out!  Oh Jesus here comes another punch!

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…TO CRUSH YOU!  ARRRRGGGHHH!!  Huh?  What?  I’m choking Nina?  NO!  Stop!  We’re outdoors!  I’m still choking her I need to, Oof!  She kneed me in the stomach, knocked the wind out of me.  Where are we in a forest?  Oh no she’s picking up a tree, I don’t know if I can duck in ti—

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SMASH!  BASH!  No!  I’m pounding Nina’s face in! I need to change to She-Titan now!  I backed away from Nina who was still going strong and showed no signs of stopping.  I couldn’t keep fighting like this. Every time She-Hulk takes over I end up hurting Nina more than the last time.  I need to gain some distance on her first, see if that can work, if I jump away I should be able to keep away long enough to cool down.  Nina is fast though and she is damn agile, she simply knocks down trees by gently pushing them to the side and man do her punches pack a mean bite!  I’ve fought a lot of different types of people in the past, but Nina is definitely the strongest one I’ve ever faced.  Then again I’m sure Sherrie was stronger, but I faced her while I was blanked out.

Okay just keep your cool Marissa, keep leaping away from her but focus on keeping your muscles!  Duck!  Dodge!  Leap!  My skin color is starting to come back, but I’m losing muscle mass!  Oh crap Nina’s right there!  She’s going to punch my stomach I won’t be able to dodge!  UAAGH!  GRRRRRR…!  You’re making me ang… come on Marissa!  Just keep avoiding her, your skin turned grey again.  Come on girl just keep focused!  She’s going to throw another punch, get ready!  Aaaahhh!  If only she didn’t hit so hard this would be easier.  I have to be careful if she manages to force me to revert, she will kill me.

Okay, my body is starting to shrink and my skin color is starting to come back, but I think the she-titan is slightly smaller than She-Hulk so I shouldn’t be afraid of this happening!  Whoa Nina’s coming, going to dodge it this time, there!  Swing and a miss!  Man she’s fast but I can dodge this, I can keep ahead of her.  She’s not even getting tired, what the hell man!  I’m trying to turn into She-Titan Nina calm the hell down so I don’t have to hurt you!  Hang on a second, my skin is back to its normal color, I still have my muscles, and I’m cognizant of what I’m doing?  YES!  It is possible!  I pulled it off!  All right Nina I’m ready to handle you now, I hope.

Now that I could clearly see Nina without a tint of red surrounding her, I realized that she looks pretty damn sexy with those muscles.  I needed to find a way to reach through to her but the programming they put into her head seems to be working, she’s not stopping for anything.  We’re fighting outside in the woods and she would hit me so hard that I’d go flying through trees knocking them down.  As much as I didn’t want to do it I picked up one of the knocked over trees and swung it at Nina like a giant baseball bat and ended up knocking her back all the way up into the mountains.  I didn’t meant to hit her so hard but she was making this difficult!  I leapt over to the mountain and found that on top was a lake with a waterfall.  I saw Nina sitting inside the lake, her hand near her head trying to shake off the hit she just took.  Her feet were submerged but her knees were towering out along with her upper torso and arms, her blonde hair was soaking wet.

She looked at me with an angry stare as I jumped into the lake causing a huge splash of water to shoot out.  She stood up and started taking several swings at me.  But now that I wasn’t fighting She-Hulk in my mind, I was able to dodge her first swing and ended up grabbing her arm. As I did so I tossed her back down onto the floor tripping her completely off balance.  Her body was face first down into the floor and I tried to approach her but she immediately looked back and kicked me in the stomach with such a force that she knocked the wind completely out of me.  I didn’t think there was anyone in the world that could penetrate through these abs!  Figures it had to be my best friend huh?  While I was trying to catch my breath Nina stood up and grabbed me by the neck, she turned me towards the waterfall and rammed me straight into it!  My back muscles hit it with such force that it caused a rock slide to tumble off the cliff face as I started getting soaking wet with the cold water.

I kept looking at Nina who was staring at me with emotionless blue eyes, which frightened me.  I kept calling her name “Nina!  It’s me Marissa!  Snap out of it!”  I know when I said her name and my name she was having conflicts, because she would blink and shake her head trying to stay focused on hurting me.  I don’t think that the mind control traits of the sample they put into her were fully working, because even in the beginning before we started fighting Nina was already rebelling.  Either Nina’s very strong willed or the agent isn’t as strong as they thought, I like to think it’s a little bit of both.  I turned the tables on Nina and turned her towards the waterfall now smashing HER into it!  The water was soaking her completely wet, it was amazing to me that her bra and panties were still intact after all this time.  I slammed her head up against the rock face of the waterfall a few times and then threw her down into the lake.

I held her head underwater hoping that the water could help her snap out of it.  I was actually getting a bit desperate because it didn’t seem like Nina was going to stop coming after me!  I lifted her head out of the water but as I did she tried grabbing me with her left arm while yelling like a mindless monster!  I screamed “NINA!  SNAP OUT OF IT!”  I forced her head back into the water and held it there for as long as I could without drowning her and picked her head up again, it wasn’t doing anything!  Nina was… Oh God Nina was really lost!  I’m not able to do anything to snap her out of it!  Nina managed to grab my arm and threw me down onto the floor punching me in the face, which felt like she had given me an instant black eye and a fracture even though I didn’t have either of those problems.

This time I kicked HER in the stomach, which hit her hard, because she was holding onto her stomach and almost nearly vomited from how hard I hit her.  I had to try something else to get through to her so I walked up to her and grabbed her forearms and said, “Nina!  Nina you need to snap out of this!  I know you’re in there, and I know you can regain control!  Nina please you have to remember who you are!  You’re Nina Viera!  I’m your best friend Marissa!”  She was struggling to get out of my grip but she kept making constant eye contact with me.  “NINA PLEASE!  I LOVE YOU NINA!  I LOVE YOU MORE THAN A FRIEND AND I COULD NEVER TELL YOU!  PLEASE COME BACK TO ME NINA I CAN’T LOSE YOU!”  The water from the waterfall masked my tears as I told Nina my true feelings for her, which I just now decided to admit.

But… but she wasn’t responding!  It wasn’t coming through to her!  I lost her, there was nothing I could do to snap her out of it, I don’t know anything about hypnosis and she’s not shrinking back to her normal size!  “NINA PLEASE!”  I sobbed and let go of my grip on her as I rested my head on her chest.  I hugged her gently as she started trying to hit me but I just stood there crying into her muscular chest.  “Nina please!  I love you!  Please come back to me!”  She still kept trying to hit me, I raised my head, looked directly into her eyes, I brought my hands up to her jaws and I simply launched myself into her and kissed her as deeply as I possibly could.

She stopped fidgeting, and though she was initially trying to punch me, her swings were starting to lose velocity and her punches were starting to lose impact.  From fracture inducing stings to gentle thuds on my skin Nina was backing off, not knowing what was going on, confused.  I removed my lips away from her and backed off just enough to look at her beautiful blue eyes.  I felt a special spark come from the kiss but I don’t know if the real Nina felt it.  I walked backwards away from her never taking my eyes off of her and she watched me.  I sat down in the cold lake and simply surrendered.  It didn’t seem like I got through to her and rather than hurt her or kill her I decided that it would be best that she just accomplish her objective and go back to living her life.

Now that I know those feelings I felt for her were real, I want her to live and be happy.  If sacrificing myself is the only way I can keep her alive and still have a chance of her being happy even if I’m not around, then that’s what I’ll do.  Nina took a pause and immediately started coming towards me, she was confused as to why I was sitting down with my elbows on the floor staring at her.  She walked towards me, balled up her fists and started punching me non-stop.  Every blow hurt worse than the last and I felt myself coughing up a foul taste of copper in my mouth.  I could feel cold liquid dripping from my aching nose and watched my vision slowly get blurrier and blurrier from the left side.  She just continued to hit me more and more, my muscles were starting to rapidly shrink and as they shrunk her blows became more and more painful.

Suddenly she stopped… a few more punches and I would fully revert back to my normal form, but she stopped.  She took a few steps back clutching onto her head as if something went inside and started messing with her brain.  Her body gyrated around with her muscles rhythmically moving to the movements of her body.  She started whimpering “No!  No!  I have to fight this!  I can’t watch myself do this to her!  She’s my friend! I’m not supposed to hurt her!  I love her too much! I can’t let myself do this!  Aaaaaaaahhhhhh!”  She screamed loudly and dropped down into the lake splashing the water.  I was too weakened to get up and run to her side, too much in pain to speak, I needed time to regenerate.  If I could just have a few moments to heal I will be back at full strength and can continue.

She was breathing deeply and I watched her muscles expand and contract with each breath, all I could see was the top of her blonde head and her muscles going up and down with the waterfall bouncing off of her lower back and rear.  She looked up at me like she instantly recognized me and said, “Maris?”  I nodded my head and she immediately got up to her feet and ran over to me yelling Oh my God!  Oh my God!  Marissa I’m so sorry!  She put her hand behind my head and pushed me up against her chest.  She hugged me tightly, but gently remembering her strength.  She pulled my head back and looked right at my eyes letting me speak, but I could see the tears in her eyes.

“Marissa are you all right?  I’m so sorry!  I’m so sorry!  I was trying to fight it, I heard you, I heard you the whole time Marissa and I was spending the entire time trying to fight myself!  I’m so sorry Marissa!”

“It’s okay Nina.”

“No it’s not okay!  I was about to kill you! I wanted to kill you!  It’s not okay!  I’m so sorry!”

“Don’t cry… it wasn’t your fault.”

“Marissa, I really do love you and I wouldn’t do anything to hurt you!”

“Nina, I love you too.”

“What?  But… you mean you weren’t just saying that?”

“No Nina.  It was always in the back of my mind but I didn’t want to believe that I was… of a different orientation.  But after seeing what you went through to protect me and keep me safe, and make me happy… I realized that it didn’t matter and I only wanted to do the same for you.”

“You really mean that Marissa?”

I lifted my hand to caress her cheek, her tear dripped onto my hand and traveled down the muscles of my forearm, her wet blonde hair gently falling off to the side.

“I really mean it.  Nina I love you, and I want to be with you.”

“I thought I was going to be alone, I was having such a hard time finding anyone I wanted to be with!  I mean I wanted to be with you but I… you would be out of reach if you just liked guys!  Marissa I don’t know what to say!”

I gently pulled her down towards me as I was still too weak to move just so that I could hear her blabber and not interrupt her.  As she started running out of things to say she climbed over me and sat near my exposed groin.  She bent over forward and wiped the blood that was dripping from my face.  She was taking care of me just as she always did. She did it with love and affection and wasn’t even taking advantage of me.  After all here I was naked, fully muscled, I couldn’t defend myself, I was wet, legs wide open, probably looked sexy to her, yet… she just focused on cleaning me up and taking care of me.

I slowly grabbed onto her pink bra and panties and with one very simple movement I tore them both off at the same time, which completely shocked Nina as she bashfully covered her ripped physique.  Her breasts had certainly turned into muscle, but thankfully portions of fat did remain allowing her femininity to still be there in a much smaller form.  I looked at her beautiful golden body sitting on top of me, her muscles glistening in the sunlight with the relaxing water splashing in the background.

Having her sit on top of me forced her blue eyes to be even more noticeable and her muscles… god she looked simply gorgeous with her new body.  She knelt down over me near my eyes again quietly.  I know she wanted to kiss me but she kept tending to my injuries.  I looked at her and we stared at each other for a moment, which will forever be frozen in time, I let her absorb me into her mind as I did her and I whispered to her.

“Kiss me…”

She slowly leaned in and started off with a tiny peck to the lips, it was timid. She felt a little awkward kissing her best friend I know.  She enjoyed it but she didn’t want me to be uncomfortable and did it in a way to ask, “are you sure?” I smiled to reassure her that it was okay.  She leaned in again and revealed to me a passion she had hiding inside of her that I didn’t know was so intense!  Her tongue met with mine, dancing around in the most intimate and gentle expression of love.  She gripped my breast in a way that only a woman would know how to do, playing a bit with my nipples, knowing how to hit all the right spots, unlike a man who jostles them around like balls.

She was so gentle and passionate, she knew what she was doing and acted as though she had been waiting an eternity for this moment.  An eternity to kiss me, and eternity to say I love you Marissa.  Little did I know, that I too had been waiting an eternity, my heart lit afire as I reflected my love towards Nina.  I felt her delicate hands exploring my body as I took pleasure in touching her rock hard and oh so muscular physique.  Mmm… to feel her body and all the bumps of her muscle, to feel this giant woman of power be as gentle as a little plush teddy bear was an incredible feeling.  Just placing my fingers on her butt to give it a bit of a squeeze was pure ecstasy.  It wasn’t long at all before we gave into our sexual desires, hmm… Nina is doing something… interesting… here.  Oh my God! Nina I have nev… Oh… OH!  I’m sorry but I think these thoughts need to remain private.

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Dude, that's the sweetest kind of freedom you have achieved.  It almost tempts ME to use my real name, though I'm not really hiding it from the FM per se but rather other things that I need to keep private.

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Why does "that" come off like it's supposed to be an insult or something?  I have a few choice words, but I'm just going to keep my mouth shut and not cause any trouble.

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Yeah, triangles sounds about right.  Making your own mesh from scratch is pretty difficult, as I am pretty sure that the Havoc physics does NOT work on any imported meshes.

For instance there is a mod for cloaks and capes that cannot use the havoc physics engine in game, so they float in the air.  They still look good but they don't move around like a cape.

So it's possible if you make an entire body from scratch it might not work properly, but don't quote me on this as I'm VERY inexperienced with importing 3d models.  All I know is that most folks have been using 3d Studio Max and Blender.  There's a Maya plugin but it's very basic and limited and I couldn't get it to work on my computer.

Also, keep in mind that if the player character wears any armors the mesh will default to the armor mesh.  So unless the mesh keeps the player one underneath the arms will shrink down to the original size.

My recommendation is to start off with Exnem's default female eye candy mesh and add muscle to that one since it has a good foundation for creating muscle mass on a mesh.  If you can make that mesh I can provide the muscle skin texture assuming there's no glitches that appear.

There is an oblivion wiki that has information involving 3d modelling and modifications, if I run into the link I'll post it up so you can check it out.

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